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i think this sunday really a last service…no extra anymore…i should say goodbye to this fellowship no longer…this’s the last photo in this fellowhsip…the peoples in the picture…is the last time to gather again!!!is the last…no extra!!!even i’m not in overseas…but is not easy to meet you guys again!!but is really a great time when i was here…even 1st time i don’t like to attend the fellowship…cause felt lonely….i hate alone!!is a bad feeling…hehe!!even most peoples don think i’m not!!ha!!but i’m the special person!!!no one can actually read my mind!!!except God!!!He know what i want!!yet He always plan to have extra things let me to learn!!!em…i do believe all these is a great lesson!!!a great train as well!!!ha!!em…here’s the words to all my MCF members…even most of you can’t see this message!!!but i belive it will go on the air!!you can feel it when you still alive!!!ha!!1is sad…but …as what you guys told me before…i need to humble and response to God call…the hard things that i don’t want to accept!!!i scare to face new place..that i ever been there before…the place i did’t heard before!!!anyway..i can do it!!

Mega campus fellowship members:

you should believe…in God plan…you have your own special role to work for God…that’s only you can fulfill this work!! God have given different talents on all of us!!different personality…character…all this just to reveals His name!!!in different way!!we need to glorifiy His name in many places…always learn to Listen…above all..surrender yourself!!you’r not live to yourself…you are actually live for Him!!all the best guys!!!continue to fight in God’s kingdom!!!He need more youth…more young peoples like you to work for Him!!!since you’re still young don’t waste your time anymore….response to God call!!!He watch out you everytime!!!yet is now the time for you to do something special….spread out God’s gospel …to everyone///the peoples around you!!!God bless you all !!!!even no change to chat with you all agian…but i believe…in God!!!we still can meet again!!!will always remember you all in my pray!!!you guys…is a great team members for me!!!continue to Shine in Him!!!hope next time…when i was back…i can see the grow in everyone of you!!!yet..you all same to see on me!!!i will change!!!Jesus love you…I love you too!!!Gambateh!!!

regard,

shirley

rushed home…2+am just reached home…saw my mum..happy…

em..mum look tired…but we still continue talked to her…yet promise will drive for her…

Just past a whole week Gamble days…finally suffered days had over now!!!finally…..em…can finally slept …without worried…haha!!Convivial days now…ha!!!listen to Hagen song now too…since last night!!!watched out City harvest church profile…yet watch their church worship sermon!!!Thanks GOd!!!let me a chance to listen to HIs words in early morning–1+am!!haha!!em…watch until 3+am!!!wow…even it sometime breakdown but can clearly listen what the pastor said!!!hope one day i really attend to this God blessed church!!!wow…that sound great right!!ha!!anyway…a whole day free…doing nothing…em…should said…relaxing…ha!!then receive a lot sms from my Mega church friends…all wishes me…haha!!!they all finally knew i leave tonight!!ha!!anyway…i will be back again this sunday!!ha!!still have 5 more days in PJ again!!ha!!but i think no one can meet out me!!!everyone busying…except me!!ha!!anyway…thanks to David,dar dar JOey ,ching,Max…and my brother=vin!!!thanks!!ha!!a bored day …when i receive the message from you all…against cheer up my mind!!ha….wow…it really a bad feeling…this afternoon walk out to buy my lunch!!!along the way….a lot of things goes into my mind!!!what will be my new life in Kampar soon? will i coming back to the place that now i stepping on?? then..walk very slow!!!even is hot!!but  i enjoyed to walk…alone!!!haha!!!sound sad sad…but…i like that…sometime…think alone!!have a space for my mind…have a time for me to think!!!to record back every moment that i faced over here….yet i know …everyone don’t like the situation that a good friend leave!!!but i believe GOd had a great plan on everything happen in our life!!!the suffer we face is far far away what He suffered to us!!!am i right>? This morning too…chat with a brother!!!i knew he face a lot of problems that he own think is serious and can’t solute…and he can’t accept everything happen on him!!!but i believe…GOd was the one!!!only Him know about us….only Him understand what actually what we need!!!i do hope i can help this young man!!!to cheer up again!!!look at him …think back the time i was in JB-Labis….the time with all my young christ brothers n sisters…the moment i help them to rebuild again in christ …that care…love …had came back again!!!God need me to care the peoples around me!!yet it’s challenge…and hard…but i believe He always be with me!!!felt want to cry!!!My heart was sweating now…not hot!!!bad touched and sad!!!i know God always there and forever here for me!!!i know sometime i can’t understand why all those things happen on me!!!but i belive That’s His plan!!!i want to pass all to GOd!!!because of You GOd!!!i want to refresh again my life!!!against love you again!!!just like the 1st time …the excited emotion to serve You again and again…forever…until the day i meet you ////// GOd!!!i need you in my life!!!i really need you!!!i Love you ….my future…everything…i just want to tell you…just want your suggestion!!!cheer up again SHIrley…i’m chili yeah!!!haha!!!Gambateh!!!to all my friends that reading this paragraph…i want to tell you Jesus love you!!!yet He will give to hope to us!!!believe in Him!!even we can’t see Him!!!but you can feel Him!!!

haiz….no mood today!!!maybe a lot of things came over me!!!!haiz…….
wanna exam still face all #$%^&*() things that i need not to think about!!!haiz….
is a haiz….day for me….don’t know how to face my exam as well….can’t even concentrate…
haiz….don’t know how i want to face my exam in this bad condition…..that’s only spilt it here…
haiz……..=====just pray that i can remember what had i study ….stress…until make myself sleepy….hungry!!!!=====just like a PIG!!!this week really live as a PIG life!!!eat …eat ….eat!!!just do like my dear dear=shen jie!!!hei you got partner now!!!haha!!!haiz…don’t know why this 2 days…haven a bad thinking in my mind!!!many question in my mind!!!!many….i even scare to face my day tomorrow….scare…and even scare to go to the new place that i going to face soon….
that feel just bad…….sad…..i really don’t know why!!!can anyone tell me??haha!!!anyway…i think i should settle down all my bad bad mood….i believe if i got this bad thinking…it would help me at all…what that i can do is……pray hard….and face the things that really need to face!!!cheer up shirley //////you can do it!!!to all my christians friends……..need your help ….just pray for me!!!i need spirit support!!!!……and i believe GOd need me to be brave to face all these that He want me to be!!!!!GOd….please help me!!!!i need Your help!!!!i really can’t affort to all this!!!1i don’t even tried to used my brain!!!scare to think!!!!haiz………scare……..but….that’s a haiz.,….on me ….today!!!!the sadness…..the anger…..is all goes on me!!!!that i start to scold myself………why i’m so so so weak!!!!!why i can’t be brave again to face all this problems……..yet all stress still go upon me!!!!!!!!haiz…………friends….don’t worry about me!!!!i’m ok!!!just like….today bad condition!!!!can’t read anything…..just sat in front my study table….with all my lecture notes….but my mind is blank!!!!haiz……God….please forgive me!@!!!!!!!!

haha…so happy cause finally i got the picture i capture with Hagen~meng qi!!!1so happy …excited!!!haha!!like him so much!!1st he’s handsome!!!and look sweet!!cute!!!haha!!!crazy!!!anyway the main point is …he’s very talent…he wrote a lot of songs…yet i crazy in all his songs…very touched…when i listen to his song…that’s a felt that deep in my heart!!!very hard to explain by words…haha!!!but…his songs…really a miracle that can read your heart!! that’s the main reason i love him!!!ha!!hope my future partner will write a song to me too!!ha!!anyway i believe GOd bless Hagen!!!He gave him a special talent that use to create a new image for christian songs…really suit to the youth now a days….really…when you listen to it ….you will believe what i said now!!!do free just ask from me…i will sent it to you!!!oo…that night!!!saw him…and gave him his own album…he sign for me…wow…excited…until today!!!it still fresh again!!ha….well…his voice always be with me…suddenly felt the other songs not so attract me…haha!!!well…but the style he wrote …really make me fall love in him!!!in his songs…the meaningful lyris….next time i will share again…he’s song…cause recently busy my final exam…so just wrote some….em…will continue to share the felt of mine….you know!!!the 1st time i listen Hagen 1st song in the album…i cried!!!and…this felt i will share with you guys…soon…soon….i love you Hagen!!!your songs really build again…my spirit life…the believe from my heart to God….rebuild a strong faith between me and God….thankyou Hagen!!!your songs that you had put a lot of effort….i will pray for you!!!and wait for your 2nd album….the songs that you write to God!!!the thanks…the hope….the praise….yes….we want only God!!!Jesus i want to give You my life!!!